“I have some pretty odd fantasies that I’d like your input on.
I frequent a website that features stories of mind control of all sorts. The types i find absolutely irresistible are the stories where the woman controls a man not though hypnosis, but though sheer power, when i think of this i imagine myself as her victim. I imagine her looking into my mind, making me do things that embarrass me, then she sexually violates me, raping me. I even imagine scenario’s where she eventually decides that I’m useless to her or that i have not met her standards and she kills me. By turning my mind into mush with her power, or i remain cursed with an erection that only she can cure, and no matter how many women i sleep with, they can never make me orgasm. Which is know is a little extreme for some, but these fantasies dominate my mind.
I often daydream about this type of scenario. Sometimes at work, sometimes when I’m sitting here on the computer or while doing daily chores. I can never really experience this fantasy cause it’s not really possible, I have plenty of interaction with females in my line of work (I’m a bouncer at a gentleman’s club) yet i find none of these females attractive or enticing. Only this one phantom image of this cruel sexy enchantress, seducing me with her power then throwing me away like i was nothing to her. just an object to be used.
I have a wife and children – my sex life with my wife is nearly dead cause she really can never ever become this type of woman i have in my head. this goddess of sorts that can control my every thought and action. I usually search the net for art pictures that resemble the image i have in my mind of this woman. and i look upon them and let my fantasies run rampant.
I guess what i really wanna know is am i beyond coming back into what is considered ‘normal’ by society. Everything about women seems dull to me save for this one image i have in my mind of this supreme fantasy. Any input you could give me would be appreciated. “
Because of the nature of your fantasy (the impossibility of it) I think that there are definitely some aspects that you are going to have to let go of if you want to have a healthy sexual relationship with a real woman – aspects like wanting/needing a partner who has the ability to covertly control your mind, turn it to mush, etc.
I think you might really be able to get into the sub-dom scene (you might even be able to bring your wife into it, if you’re interested) where you could have a dominating mistress who would boss you around and generally play at overtly controlling you and your thoughts – that is, by telling you what to think, do, etc.
This would sort of be a way of bringing your fantasy back into the realm of plausibility and hopefully help you to feel more fulfilled in your sex life.
Try checking out craigslist or your local fetish shops for listings of sub-dom groups in your area or even to track down a dominatrix.